Name--> NYX Gary
Gender--> Male
D.O.B--> 13.10.1991
Age--> 18
Status--> Attached
Country--> Singapore
School--> ITE CE (Simei)
Class--> UH0901A
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Things just went so wrong at the start of the holidays.
I was forced to update to the latest MSN and bingo, most of my important contacts are gone and I cant add them back. Best of all, neither can they add me back.
Running today is impossible now that the reservoir is wet and the sun is never out for the entire day...
My computer ain't for gaming now that it's 7 years old.
I feel as if I was thrown into D-Day at Normandy with only rubber rounds and dud grenades as weapons.
I have promised myself that I will change, so I will.
All this, is for everyone around me.
All this, is for myself...
What am I to you? Honestly answer me.
But yeah, sometimes, despite knowing the reasons...
Hey people~
Im back to blogging and this time, it's Yours Truly - Definitely not my shithead of a Sister. :)
These consecutive days of Chalet is taking a toll on me.
Though I feel very tired, I feel as if I can go on - like my energy is limitless.
Let's start on Sunday.
I went to the Chalet at 10++pm!!! Because of work.
When I reach Pasir Ris, I meet up with Hong Wei and we travelled to Downtown East and then to the chalet after we bought our food. :)
Jimmy was playing Metal Slug with his friend! D<
Watch 'Hangover' with him at the chalet while waiting for the rest.
Hohoho, my radar detected some love in the air, so when I turn to look at Acktosh, he is kissing Julia! >D
Drink red wine and some french liquor/liquier/whatever you spell it as punishment.
All these are nothing to me. but I still cant drink Vodka, though. :)
Wake up early in the morning and quickly rush to school.
There were only 8 people present! D<
In the end, it's just some MLM stuffs he got me into. -_-"
Well, anything, after listening to all these stuffs, I went back to Ong's friend's chalet.
Overall, I was already tired and really didnt feel like doing anything.
So yeah, I went home.
Thanks for talking to me for the first half of my trip back home, shitty sis. :)
IM SO SCREWED.
Im so gonna die.
I can forsee my first 'Love' letter from my teacher le. T.T
First of all, I would like to address this to all my dear friends and my comrades.
Yesterday I did not have a good day. A fever struck me as I was working and I was given an early leave.
When I reached home, instead of rest, I proceed to coming online to chat with you guys, and to read my mangas.
An unforturnated incident occurred because of me. I tried to stand in a middle of what I see as an incoming war. Both sides of the party,were important people to me. They are my dear friends, very close friends.
With my brain overheating already, I cant think. I said the first thing that comes into my mind, and without processing it of course.
During this time, I'm already very frustrated. I tried to stay calm and think, but apparently, even the usual, calm and compose me failed to remain calm.
I reach my human limits and I started rampaging.
As I rampages on and on and on, I hurt both side of the party and some of my friends and comrades. I even threw a tantrum at various friends and comrades, to the extend of even trying to end the friendship.
I failed. As a friend and as a comrade, I failed. When I manage to cool myself down by following one of my comrade's idea to punch the wall, I apologize to everyone.
Some replied, some didn't.
I knew I have crossed the line. I have literally drop a planet buster on each and everyone of you. I knew no matter how many years or months of friendship I have with you guys and girls, such a wound can never heal, be it by action or by words, I can never heal them up.
It's my fault. I couldn't gain control of my own anger and other destructive emotions. Saying that my fever is one of the reasons that trigger this will be just an excuse in everyone's eyes now.
I'm sorry, my dear friends and comrades. Though a few of you no longer see me as someone you can count on anymore, I just want you to know that if there is anything I can do to make up for my sins, tell me, and I will do anything. I really mean anything.
This is not buying friendship. I'm doing this so I myself can feel better. Some of you wants me to remember this mistakes as an everlasting wounds on myself... As for this, you dont have to worry. Its already a wound in my life to mark that I am a worthless fool who doesnt know what he is doing. I can only apologize and apologize all day long...
In my entire life as it is now, yesterday marks the worst day of my life. It marks the day where I have lose sight of myself and have hurt many friends. I do not expect everyone to forgive me, but if it is possible, please forgive me for my rudeness and sudden outburst of rage.
And for those of you who didnt know, that kinda shows how I was back then... Agitated at every little things. Back then, I thought I by closing up the doors to my heart, I can form a fortress to protect others from me. Yeah it did.
But ever since I open these doors, I have seen nothing but anger and sorrow in my friends' eyes.
I do not know what to do for now, other than closing my doors once more. I shall never open it to anyone unless each and everyone of you - my dear friends and comrades that I have hurt, tells me to.
Im very sorry.