Sunday, April 19, 2009
Congratulations, Mr. Zero!You have won yourself a Survival Package!
You are on your own now!
From today onwards, you shall not receive any money from your parents anymore!
Any amount your mum left on your table, you are to tear them apart!
Remember - You are ON YOUR OWN. Do not depend on them!
You have told your mum straight in the face that you do not acknowledge her as your mum anymore, therefore be a man and do what you said... Dont rely on her for your school fees, food, transportations, ETC...
Let me share with you some tips to help you get by this crisis.
1) Survive on water only! Singapore water are safe to drink, so if you ever find yourself thirsty, drink from the tap! There are water-coolers in the school, use them too!
2) Consume minimal food! You cant eat your standard $5.70 meal anymore, so start learning to get by hunger with just hot-dog buns! They only cost 90cents!
3) What happen if you are really weak from hunger? Idiot, its easy! All you need are WILLPOWER & DETERMINATION. These are mental strengths that can even overcome the toughest of things!
4)Meditation! This is definitely a must to do everyday to brainwash your mind of the hunger! Remember to do it, soldier!
5) Passion have to go! Im sorry to say you have to drop boxing and spearmanship for survival, but it's a must. You got no choice here. Your phone died and you gotta get the cash to buy a new phone right?
6) Control your emotions! Dont get angry too often, and dont get happy to much. They drain away your energy and cause your brain to reminds you that you are currently lacking of energy and strength! So to maintain a healthy mental strength, remain emotionless!
7) Sleep as soon as possible! At least the house is still open for you! Once you get home, do what you need to do, and then go to sleep quickly! Sleeping will help you recover much needed energy! So you gotta have plenty of sleep!
8) When working, try to talk to Nelson or the Lady Boss lesser. You need to reserve energy! Also, you cant get proper food to eat anymore! Survive on breads from the nearby Bakery!
9) Good luck. Though you always have bad luck, you need a little luck to help you get by certain times. So pray hard that Lady Luck will smile to you, blessing you with good luck!
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Ok, I got that.
Also my friends... My phone LCD screen aint functioning anymore. I can only receive calls from you guys, so stop sending smses. There is no way I can reply them without seeing what the fuck the sms is trying to say and what the fuck I am typing.
10:47 PM
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
I found it.
I found it!
The Destiny I have been looking for... my Destiny.
Looking back, I laughed at my own folly.
The answer is always right here before my eyes, yet I never noticed them.
Yes, Honor and Chivalry shrouded my vision. The reason to my folly is simple.
Being Mr.Nice Guy - IS my folly.
Thats right.
Helping others without being appreciated is never a problem for me. Being forgotten is a natural thing for me.
The goddess of love, Aphrodite, does not shine her brilliance for me. So be it. I found what is my purpose in life for, and will live for that purpose until this very life ends.
I will continue to provide advices - The way this Era wanted.
This Era, of Materialism. :)
11:42 PM
Monday, April 6, 2009
Ambushed!
By!?
......Gastric pains......
Haiz.
Woke up early in the morning to feel my stomach is somewhat uncomfortable.
Turn on my computer and play some music, and finally, the Great Gastric Rebellion starts.
I had to go to the washroom a total of 3 times - Not as bad as the previous Gastric Attacks, but this time, I did vomitted.
The pain is simply unbearable.
Thankfully, Grandma was at my house for the moment and gave me a small tube. Inside contain this dark green powder. It gives of this oreintal fagrance.
The instructions said : "Pass down from generations to generations. Can be inhaled or mix with warm water."
Ok, I aint really going to go with the inhaling method so I just use the normal mix with warm water method.
After drinking.... Gastric reactions became worse.
Struggled around like an infected. Rolling around the bed. And finally, force myself to sleep.
Thankfully, when I awoken, the number of aches it had declined, and I feel much better - allowing me crawl over to use the computer again.
The pain didnt end, just continuously aches.
Took the second tube from Grandpa this time and tadaa~! Much better!
That is why, Chinese medication FTW~!!!!
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It still hurts a little now though...
8:53 PM
Saturday, April 4, 2009
From when, I didnt know... But now, I realised.
I am constantly hiding under a mask that shows I am always smiling so that people will accept me more.
Must I, really smile?
Must I, always give in to the rest?
Must I, throw away my way of life, so people will like me more?
I have one, very simple question to ask, each and everyone of you.
Must I, put on a smiley mask, so that everyone of you - who is too afraid to see my emotionless face - can accept me?
12:29 AM
Thursday, April 2, 2009
When I was young, Holidays to me is like a miracle that pulls me away from the stressful workloads of schoolworks.
But now, holidays is like a period of time where time itself, seems to have slowed down.
Ok, basically, holidays is a nightmare for me.
1) It bores me out, real fast. (like, right now.)
2) There aint really anything I can do.
3) Time seems slower than usual. (seriously, time is way faster in school, when studying.)
4) When it comes to holidays, I dont always get allowance, so my wallet always seems so empty.
5) I think too much out of boredom. (I need to find things to do or else I might attempt suicide out of boredom.)
6) Vacation project is stressful, but I have done what I need to do. (See? Its this fast!)
7) I wont get to chance upon anything interesting by just staying home!
8) My computer is dying, with no capabilities to support current games, therefore, no games to play.
9) Even my internet is slow.
10) Coz im really bored, bored, bored.
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Seriously, I really wish holiday will just end.
I cant fucking stand it and there is like, one more week of holidays. RAWR!
My life just turned haywire.
I cant live without school now.
Dammit! If only I have a proper running shoes and a pair of boxing gloves... I will be in the boxing gym right now! T.T
4:10 PM
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Ok, this post marks the end of the 'Loveless' Poem. The last sentences of the last chapter was on the previous post, and there aint any left.
I want to rant. But firstly, lets talk about some fun stuffs that happened.
I woke up in the morning with a very, very bad headache.
Tried to meditate and resume my standard morning-must-do breathing blah blah blah. But to my horror, I cough very badly half way through.
And what does this show? My inner energy, otherwise called, the Ki/Qi Flow, was disrupted and now have already gone haywire.
And shortly after that, I start feeling uncomfortable.
There is an event that happened earlier, but lets not talk about it. :P
When I feel better, I went with Hong Wei to play lan. BECAUSE OF HIM... I had to take a long bus trip with him to DG. AND HALFWAY THROUGH, I am strucked by Motion Sickness. I dont usually get motion sickness from bus that easily anymore, but this time, its due to me not feeling really well with my Ki/Qi Flow disrupted...
Finally alighted and went to eat. And then went to play.
Play the Nazi Zombie mode in the game COD5. It was too laggy and we quit.
Went to try Red Alert 3 but we couldnt link up with each other due to version mismatch. -_-"
Have a take on L4D, but we played different games coz we cant link up too.
Played COD4 and Hong Wei was seriously... Bad at shooting.
Battlefield 2, haiz. Hong Wei didnt get a single kill until late game, after a few rounds. -_-"
Then, we left the cybercafe and he headed home while I go meet up with Kenji, Jimmy, and Nelson. We walked our way from Parklane, all the way to the Singapore Flyer.
Why?
They wanna eat Popeye.
I followed them, enduring the returning headache and eat with them. But finally, my headache manage to suppress my appetite so I didnt finish my food.
After that, we went to the Esplanade to sit down, enjoy breeze, then chat. :D
Headache everywhere and just as I was about to go nuts, the headache is gone when im talking to someone over the phone! :3
We went to Starbucks later, and I was still on the phone.
And I receive a very bad news.
I rather not talk about it.
And then we go home. In the train, my headache was at its peak. I didnt talk, just sit down and rest.
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Now for the rant.... Ok not really a rant, but I just want to let out some bottled stuffs.
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What does it takes, for you to understand why am I doing all these for you?
Maybe I just aint doing it right?
I dont know.
I hate it.
I seriously hate it... Do you know?
I feel as if, im invisible to you... So can you tell me what must I do for you to know?
Things definitely aint going bright on my side. But what else can I do but to persevere and not give up?
Even if this is the end, I wont give up... I simply just cant.
12:09 PM
