Name--> NYX Gary

Gender--> Male

D.O.B--> 13.10.1991

Age--> 18

Status--> Attached

Country--> Singapore

School--> ITE CE (Simei)

Class--> UH0901A

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Went to visit Jacqueline over at her home after my work yesterday. Great to see her all hyper and active. It relieves me off my worries.

Nelson, Kenji, Ong, Darren and Janice was there too!

They wanted to watch movie at her house so... Unexpectly, Jac's sister's boyfriend give us a disc and the show is... Battle Royale! >D

Its a show where I was featured in. xD *gets bashed up*

As they watched, I just simply sit on the floor and continue my random drawing. Was thinking a lot of stuffs and I could really come out with what I want to draw. Moreover... Well, I won't dwell onto that part, coz I know my blog is being spied on. <_<"

The movie over already, and then they decided to go for dinner. As they eat, I continue my drawing. Finally, I gave up drawing after I realise, I can't focus.

Seeing how two of them get together closely... It kinda pains me. But hey, if I love her, I should feel happy for her now that she most probably know who she wants already right? Hahaha, I think I am foolish. I ain't sensible at all and I know it.

So I... Will stand by the sidelines and watches her being happy and naive, while continuing to bear the pain which my heart already can't contain anymore. Im at my best, my limit. The last chain keeping my heart up, is going to snapped. I dunno what to do anymore.

Alright... Shortly after, Kenji, Ong, Darren and Nelson left. Only left Me, Janice and Jacqueline. They tries to talk to me, but when I notice they have something private to talk about among the two themselves, I decided to just leave...

So I... Stand up, with my headphone on the ears, so that I can't hear a thing. And walk off to the MRT station with only a wave without looking back. xD

RAWR! RAWR!

I cannot believe it!

I had to take send delivery order to customers when my friends come... -_-"

Damn, it was raining super heavily. -_-"

And that was yesterday. xD

I dont have anything new to update other than... Ah Hui taught me how to properly use the system of the PSP! xD

If not for him, I think I still blur blur lol. xD

Hahaha, nothing to blog about. Just that recently my feelings is reacting weirdly.

I know what its telling me and I know the feeling is true. Yet, I can't and I won't stand up against 4 other friends who wish to woo her too. If that is the case, I will step down and trap that feeling down in my isolated heart, and when the time comes... I will slowly disappear from her face, this world, and finally, her memories.

Is that giving up? Maybe...?
I dunno myself too.
Will I eventually regret it? Maybe...?
I dunno, even though Im already started to regret my actions.

As the pain continue to ravage my already torn heart, I can only think and wishes for her happiness with another guy. When she really do so... I will take and make use of that opportunity and disappear from her memories in an instant. Its the perfect plan. Nothing will ruin it.

But, is that sacrificing your own happiness for a friend? Answer is yes.

I cannot bear to go against anyone of them, for I know them for 4 years and still counting. They are my best pals from school and daily life that I cannot lose.

Hahahaha, I wonder should I really do such a thing... but oh well...

If fate permits, I will be with her, if not, I wont. Simple.

AHHHHH!!!!!

Shafiq birthday party was super far. -_-"
All the way at changi beach park. -_-"

And when I was there... I spotted Area 5 CIs setting up tents. After asking Shermaine is here or not, I shouted "KAAAEEEENNNN!!!!!"

She look stunned. :D
She turn around and try to find me. >:D

I shouted once more with my hands waving "Im ZEEEERRROOOO!!!!!"

And she spotted me and run after me trying to mess my hair and keep on shouting "BAKA SHISHOU!!!!!!!" XDXDXD

Such a small world. Or perhaps I should say... My friends network is as large as all the way the land of Freedom? >:D

I know only later she got scolded by her friends. :D Coz CI should not behave like that. >:D

Then we started out 2km walk to Carpark 6... -_-"

It was further up all the way from the SAF ferry terminal... -_-"
In the end, I got pissed off and decided to ask those NS men for direction. They told me just ahead... -_-"

I look forward, holy god, all I see is a forest in front and an airfield by my side.D:

continued to walk and finally reach and saw shafiq and his family over there camping the whole place. D:

Then we played some games until Jacqueline and Kenji comes... Something bad happen to Jac, and it seems that- oh well, I have no intention to say it out. But I will hunt down the person who did that to her. If not, my name as a SOLDIER 1st CLASS is tarnished. -_-"


Then continued to play card games and finally, we left. And when we did... I forgot that I had Jac's shades on my head... *facepalm*

Now, lets skip the boring ride home and now to the Cosplay Matsuri.

IT ISNT COSPLAY AT ALL. -_-"

SO LITTLE COSPLAYERS AND SO MANY LOLITAS AND PUNKS. D:< Th1s 1s t3h suxxor. D:<

Nevertheless, went there and saw spidey and rest, followed them around until Yining manage to find me. D:< Damn it. -_-" Stupid Jerome and Justice. -_-"

When around and finally go to daiso and get drinks. WAHAHAHA, DAISO DRINK STILL THE BEST! :D

Go around once more and finally reaches the grandstand and we sit down and wait for the event to start... which take very very long. -_-"

After the event finishes... I got into some seriously bad shits. -_-"

People who are there will know, the Bully Gary Team forces me to take a notebook as Deathnote and poses as Yagami Raito. -_-" I WAS NOT COSPLAYING!!!!!!! D:<

Then... FORCED TO DO YAOI WITH L.... D:<
The L is a female somemore... WTH.... I now feel so guilty. T.T
Grrr.... Asked Shinodax to help out of this mess, but he replied, "Eh? You cosplaying Yagami mah." I got abandoned.... T.T
Then WTH, photographers everywhere taking my yaoi shots with L.... D:
WTH LA, I NOT COSPLAYING LA. T.T

Finally, Spidey appear and ZenZenArimasen decided to help after filming down those things... -_-"

Spidey suddenly jerk off the girls hands and me and Zen run away! :D
Got saved. XD

Goes to harbourftont center and eat then goes off to Mount Faber Safra to play bowling. :D

I FAILED BADLY> T.T

Alright, I will skip the rest, I will end the post for today. :D

It was fun, what can I say?

I work up at 8pm and was bathing. I start to feel slight giddiness and then for no apparent reason, I vomited. I check my temperature, and god dam it - It was a high 39. D:

I quickly send a SMS to danny that I am not feeling well and I couldn't attend work.
And shortly after, I fell on my bed and sleep. That is when... I had a dream.

Myself, tied on a cross, and got torture by any weapons you can think off. I tried to escape the dream but to no avail. And finally, just when I was about to give up... An angel came down and rescue me from my tormentors. D:

I look up to face the angel. She gives off a very peaceful and calm aura... Sadly, her armour reaching up to her neck covers her face partially, and I could only see the beautiful eyes and hair of hers. D:

Then the next thing I know, I woke up. D:

Look at the time, HOLY GOD. It was 3.50pm. And whats better... I feel as good as a new~! D:
I turn on my computer with the intention to continue to post on the SRF forum, but when I see the thread... I dunno how to continue. D:

So leave the forum and go take a bath. Then Kenji called and told me Shafiq birthday party was today, at Bar Code, which is a pub at Gemmill Lane. D:

Styled my hair, but it refuses to stand even with HAIRSPRAY. So give up and flatten it after re-washing it. Now, I suddenly look like someone... -_-"

I went to JE and the only thing I got, was some juvenile delinquents say they are not happy with the way I walk. They are students wearing school uniforms, which I cant remember which school. They are a mix of malay and chinese. There is even girls in their group.

They not happy, they want to settle business with me at a carpark beside IMM.
Ok lor, I follow them. On the way, I SMS Kenji I will be late as some kids wanna find trouble with me. He asked if I need back up and where I am, I didnt reply, coz I reach the spot le.

They took out from their bags knifes and metal pipes. I stood a distance from them, and tried to reason with them, of course, with a coward face showing them I am scared. They refuse to talk peacefully and wanted to fight a one on one. And finally, one chinese boy lunge at me with his kitchen knife.

He missed me by an Inch because I took a quick side-step towards the left. As soon as his right hand holding on to the knife missed, I grab his right wrist and twist it, and at the same time, my left up, fully prepared - launch a crippling blow onto his shoulder joint, dislocating his right arm for good. Now that he cannot control his pain and is kneeling, I took the knife from him and push him down onto the ground and then step on his face with my army boots.

"Sa... Who's next?" I asked, at the same time, covering my face with my right palm in such position that they can see me grinning.

"Me." A chinese girl answered.

She had with her a metal pipe. She ran towards me and jump, trying to do a high upper blow onto my head. I dodge to my left and as she land, I grab onto her hands. I didnt want to hurt a girl, so I smiled at her then I jump back twice. Her face filled red with embarrassment as she tries to attack me. This time, brutally swinging that pipe all around. I cannot block of such attack, so I stop her in her track with the knife - by running towards her throwing the knife onto the ground in front of her. She stop swinging as she stop and I pin her down onto the ground.

This time, the whole group came to attack. but they failed, terribly. Weak, I should say. Their strength is good. But their coordination fails - which resulted them in accidentally hitting their own friends. If I really called Kenji to come, I think they will have die under the powers of the Ng brothers. And finally, a driver came to park his car saw my situation and shouted "Oi!The police is coming!"

And the group just picked up their weapons and ran off. I got saved. :D

Ok, lets skip the boring part. When I reach the party zone, it was filled with ppl. :D
And everyone was talking to each other.

And the first thing I go in, I got dragged... Then, push up the stage to do POLE DANCING. D: *facepalm*

Got up and did that. T.T
I cant believe it. The leader of Knights' Fangs doing pole dancing!? D:<
Oh well, I must say, I can do it! :D
I can do pole dance quit well. xD

And finally, got to know a few peeps and every hit the dance floor when the party really start. I didnt know how to dance, so I just randomly do parapara. :D

It was crazy, alot of remixed songs and wtf, there is an indian songs. :D
It was quite nice, and quite sad for me. Shafiq got such a great parents. See how good they got along really makes me feel bad about myself. Oh well...

Then everything ended. Goes to Kenji house with a group of peeps and they start drinking beer and Chivas. -_-"

I drank a few sips of Heineken and then stop and play Crisis Core. :D
Then go back home. :D
And here I am posting. :D

Tomorrow morning got NDP dance training... D:
But I dont feel like going... D:
But finally, decided to go.

Alrighty, must wake up at 6am tomorrow. Dang, must reach outram at 8am. D:

No title coz this is just random stuffs. :D

Went back to school on Saturday night to see campfire. Brings back lots of nice memories of how when we are young, use to behave and shouting like nuts during campfire. T.T

Then on sunday... I erm... If I'm not wrong, was whole day at home, on my computer chair, staring at the computer screen and my psp. T.T

Oh yeah, MY PSP IS FIXED! AND MY SAVE FILE OF MHF2 was gone! T.T

Tried drawing something and in the end, tearing the piece of drawing to shreds and dump the book on the bed. Went online to look at some video and then turn off again. Go bath and blah blah blah blah.

Monday. Hong wei came down to my house and both of us started rotting. :D
I play PSP while he uses my com. Then after that, left home for work.

Work was dam sian... No fun de. I getting bored of it, but for the sake of earning moolah, I have to persevere. D<

Tuesday, which is today. Something weird happen. Work was boring as usual. And during my trip home from bus... I was thinking about something sad that happen between me and a deceased friend of mine when suddenly, the song - One more time, One more chance - started playing. And then the next thing I knew, I started crying. <_<"

Oh well, that tragic event did dealt a serious blow on me. But, lets not touch on that.

Have I changed?
One friend said I changed. I have turn more sissy. -_-"
Another said I changed. I have an aura of terror when I walk with a stone face. -_-"
Another said I changed, saying I have become much more noble and elegant. O_0....
Another said I changed, saying that I am no longer as gentlemanly as I was before.
Another said I changed, saying that I lost the flare of life, and is stuck on a crossroad of life.
Another said I changed, that I have now turned more taller. <_<"
Another said I changed, that I am no longer the Gary/Zero he/she knew before.

Just what have I changed? But I can only be sure of one thing... I am losing the flare of life - The flare that keeps me going and to stay alive. Whatever that is important now no longer seems to be as important.

Im lonely, having no one to think about and having no one to care about... My heart is empty. Just like what Nelson said, it hurts to not have a person you want to care for and protect. Yes, it hurts.

But its been like this for 1 year already... So? I guess I just live with it as it continues to inflict pain upon me.

MY MUSCLES HURTS! Especially around the chest and biceps. Went to gym last thursday with Justin and the ache is still not leaving, but only getting worse. Moreover, I have a serious bruise on my middle right toe. Its been on going for months, and today, it finally turn blue black. T.T (It hurts...)

I took part in NDP DANCE! :D

To be precise, hip-hop. :D
Basic stuffs la, nothing serious. But we need more peeps. We need around 40-50 more peeps to join us.

IM GONNA DRAG ANYONE INTO THIS. >:D

Went back to school last wednesday, for the sake of collecting my 'N' Level Cert. D:

Was about to leave the school after collecting, but spotting blue berets marching. :D

So I go down... towards the Sec 1 section... And my first sentence to them was...

*Ahem* "Move somemore! Selan-diri still can move ah? Don't move and don't look down! The floor no gold, only ants!" *Ahem*

Thats how I greeted them... And when I see the boys staring at the girls' guide marching in front of them...

"Eh Boys! Look up! Stomach in chest out! Look straight and up, not at those girls' guide!" *Ahem*

I can remember seeing a few girl guide giggle in their march and the few female cadets giggled too. :D

Hahaha, my friend who was commanding those sec 1 was laughing behind them lol. The CIs turn to look at me and I turn back to see them. And we wave at each other. The look on the sec 1 was bludy nice - A stunned look with the expression of "who the fuck is this guy? And why is he commanding us!?"

After that, left school and go home. :D

Then on friday, went to work and then go back to school, no, not to torture sec 1 cadets, but to find friends.

There they are, sitting down on the same canteen bench as we always did during our secondary school days... wah, very very nice memories, but that only apply to those canteen peeps. xD

Then I walk pass a group of sec 3 students and they are like staring at my hair. I had my headphone on but music off, and one of them said "Wah kao, super long hair sia. Like a girl..."

I twitched my eyebrow and glare at the girl for a second, then walk to my friends and sit down to chit chat. :D

Alot of peeps say I change. But where other than my beautiful hair? :D

Hahaha, today dance practice was also not bad, just that after the event, Ong told me and Daryl - "Eh, the instructor refuse to allow you two to leave, saying that you two got good techniques and footsteps."

I was like O_O"

I first time dance leh... *facepalm*

Nvm, will end here, and I promise to update you on the latest interesting fact!

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Mas Selamat is still on the run. :D
*gets bricked and knocked out*

Sorry for not posting previously!

Got bored and didn't know what to post. :D

Anyway, I will skip everything and just get straight to today's outing.

I kinda woke up late. And I rush towards Somerset and quickly goes Cineleisure.

Contact with the rest of the SRF went off since my handphone got no more juice left. D:

But being the clever me, my 7th sense tell me that the SRF are hanging around the arcade near the cinema. And I was right. They are playing driving games and SD is playing Para Para. Hahaha, with my 7th sense, I should start going around Singapore to catch the wanted JI leader! >:D

But seriously, I can't believe he escaped. If my prediction is correct, he will be hiding in one of his unidentified underlings' houses near Whitley Road. I don't believe he is the only man who is a JI terrorist in Singapore. But oh well, I won't bother about it. I will just serve the community with my eyes wide open in target search mode, hunting for him with my private organisation. >:3

Alright back to the outing. We went to take Neoprints. -_-"
Then, go down to kombayashi(Is it?) and eat breakfast/lunch/dinner. D:

Ordered a Korean beef set and eat. :D
Kaen add alot more chilli powder to it on my rice and my beef, but that failed to scorch my tongue. >:D

Then after that, went home on the train while reading a book which I bought. Its a book about Commandos and how they are formed. Something like documentary kind but it was nice. It caught my attention when I was on the second floor waiting for the cybercafe to have slot available to play. D:

Anyway, this is where I will end my post. :D